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Name: Jenny
Country: New Zealand
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Birthday: 10/21/1988


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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Blessings

Lately I feel like my life is a real mess. The break up, the busy-ness with uni work, badminton club, badminton club, badminton club and the badminton club, entertainment book sales, children ministry, and everything else. I feel like i've over committed myself. So much so that the more important things in life are almost forgotten. So much so that I feel the only way out is to run away from everything.

I can rant on and on about how sucky my life is at this point but I know we all go thru bad times in life and it'll pass, it's just a matter of time. In fact because everything is in such a mess i start to appreciate alot of amazing things that i take for granted for the last couple of years of my life. Peace, happiness, friends, families, the grace of God, and just nice things in general!

With all the other commitments I have, I've slowly drifted away from my commitment as a Christian. But His grace was revealed to me over and over again in the past few weeks so much so that it was overwhelming. Things with badminton club, things with the break up, things that seemed hopeless was made possible, with Henry, with interclub, tournament and everything! It never stops to amaze me that after all that I've done against Him, He never once have left me or forsaken me, but instead He reveals to me everyday that He's there.

As pastor said in his TXT (wooooo hip!) "Expect great things from God, Attempt greats things for God"

No matter how crap I am emotionally and how lost I am with the break up and the mess, I know that I'll pull thru because my father up there will always be with me in everything i do. Isaiah 41:10  'So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you,  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.' And with this and the Friends and family I'm blessed with, I know I will be ok......

God is good all the time.


Monday, February 09, 2009

I don't like this

I dont like the feeling of always wanting to cry whenever i stop distracting myself

I dont like it when i doubt the decision i make everytime i think about him

I dont like it when i constantly feel like shit

I dont like it when i automatically check my phone for messages and nothing's there

I hate how everything in my room, my house reminds me of the times we've spent together and how much i miss it

I hate how i'm crying so much i dont remember the feeling of being happy

I hate that i have nothing to do to get my mind off it

I hate when people tell me their sorry about what happened cos i'd wanna cry but i'l always have to hold it in

God help me

I want out


Monday, October 20, 2008

Stepping Into My Twenties!

   
It's my last day of being a teenager !!

so i thought i might document my thoughts on my teenage years!

I really can't remember not being a teenager! it seems like most of my memories, ups and downs etc all happened in my teenage years.

I have to say i did have some crap times but during my teenage years especially during my early teens when i use to be an emo, middle kid syndrome, a super nerd, bad friends, bad grades, etc etc.. but i mean everyone must've gone thru tough times right?? but i'm so greatful of everything that's happened in my life and everyone involved because they made me who i am now!

So i guess here are some highlights of  teenage years?


13, 14, 15 ....... i was in Tshung Tsin secondary school, Sabah. tough times! but i did have a HEAP of fun back then! being a rebel, wagging class, talking back to teachers, etc etc, but at the same time manage to be the teacher's pet in some classes lol. also had my very first class trip without parents!

And i also had my first boyfriend Dennis in form 1, first time really liking a boy ooOOoooh.. and man did my dad almost kill me when we got busted. It was the weirdest, most surreal feeling in the world and i remember not being able to process the fact that i have a boyfriend.
DenzyDennis! (not ur 'inappropriate' one dont worry hahahaXD)

Didnt last very long but man did i use to go crazy just seeing him walk pass, or when he comes online on ICQ, and sneakily talking on the phone hoping my dad will not come home anytime soon! Didnt work out too well afterall but im so happy i met him cos he's one of my bestest and oldest friend now. =D

Form 2 i remember being in a class full of crazy gangsters! smoking fighting you name it! Wasn't the most eventful year i must say.

Form 3 was probably the best year! also a sad one when i found out i was gonna move to new zealand but happy that i'll get to hang out with Kim again!
Lotsa class trips! with lotsa really cool people!, Penny, Eva, Mong Man, Ah Tay, Ah Moo, Ah Liau etccc! Thanks guys for making my last year in malaysia so memorable!


16........ First year in NZ, reunited with my crazy best cousin KIM!! and our crazy-ness continues till today! 

tiny Kim n I! on my 16th!

met the J-blockers!! The first people i met were Mandy, Rachel, Kenneth, Lisa, Emily etc etc etc and you guys made my first year so much easier! Also Eddy and Roland, in our science and bio class LOL crack up!!and PE! man that was fun! and Mrs Mikael lol "WHY LATE"! "WHY THIS NOISE!".. I had so much more fun than i expected to! Went out with my second bf, not very memorable lolll ..
Not to forget all the notes passing with mandy eventhough we see each other everyday in econ and lunch and morning tea!

Started working at dominos!! do not remind me!! loll bad boss but great workmates!! Melly and Sara the crazy front counter girls LOL...


17........ Formed the AT!! hahaha stands for Always Together consists of me Rach Eddy and Roland haha.. we were such losers but man did we have fun!! probably the happiest time of my teenage life! things have changed as things do but i really treasure the times i spent with u guys:(. and my best friends Rach and Mandy!! and still are!! Love u guys so much!!

AT The AT! Roland Me Rach Eddy

Went out with Roland on the 21st april thnx to Rach and Eddy for punking us into liking each other loll!..Rainbow's End and Sleepover!! and i remember once we wanted to go to the movies but neither of us could drive, so we got roland's sister to take us, and his grandma came along and we had the most awkward but cutest car ride to the cinema hahaha.. Also didnt work out too well also glad to have been with him cos we too are still close friends till today! and work mates!
And in maths where rach n i use to get told off when Ashley talks!!! and eats!


18........ Big 18!, last year in Rangi!...Met Shen! and shen eddy rach n I had the craziest times! lying on the road on guyfawkes day, shen scaring us with the ghost he names Sally!, 7th form ball, more importantly the afterball! Jacob and his jokes! 3rd year of being in the same eco class as mandy!! and bio with rach with mrs Kenney!! hayyy??? soo soo much fun! and last day:(( lotsa tears and lotsa photos! class 2006 118MandyMe n Rach last day of rangi!

us4Rach Eddy Shen Me!
Of course i did no forget the Piha Trip!!!! Where i met david ko hahaha and leo and henry etc etc etc! refer to last blog entry on piha trip! also started going out with Henry on the 29th Jan. Which was really weird coz we first met in 5th form, my first year in rangi, and was in the same class in 6th form, where everyone like daniel bill g etc will match make us, telling me to marry him coz he's rich etc lol and im like whatever.... XD. and happy to say we are still going strong till today.

hen HenryXD

me hen Me n Henry, my finger is in his mouth coz he keeps trying to stick his tongue out

mahinepua Crew!


Also i came to know God, one of the most important event in my life. I knew about God since i was a young kid coz of mum n grandma but i had my first personal experience with Him only when i went to get smart with rach n eddy (thanks guys!).. It really changed my life alot, changed the way i view things, no more middle kid syndrome, no more yelling at parents, less hating. I can't say i'm the best person in the world now but i sure am a much happier person and life is so much more peaceful when I have God with me, God is good.

but sadly Shen had to go bak to singapore for NS, Eddy going to Otago, but the biggest bombshell was Rach leaving for Otago too! The airport was the hang out place for most of our summer, lotsa tears:( but lotsa nice memories:)..

Started teaching swimming at the Millenium centre!! till today and loving it!

Bye highschool!!

hoodie They chuck their square hat we chuck our leaver's hoodie.

asian roadblock Asian roadblock, spot mr Khan n Mrs mikael!

ball2 7th form ball:)


19....... First year uni!! uni was sooo much fun in first year, sport science was awesome, met some realllly cool people like Hayley and Liam, my best uni friends, Hayley the south african ginga!, Liam the blondest brown hair kiwi i've met! they're the easiest people to be around and i love them! sadly Liam is now in BCom but we still share the same locker:). Hayley and i pretty much have the same time table since first year!
Another major highlight was uni games!!

DSC03379 Richard Binz Chatu Prabh Me n Hayley!

met my cool as nigger friends:p Binula and co! and Richard aka jocks! we got owned but we sure had fun!! at the holy grail club etc!
Also joined the Badminton Club as Activities coordinators with Hayley but ended up doing everything! going to grants meeting and all! so we got promoted to being vice pres!
Rach came back from Otago!!!! the trio reunites!!!


20.................................... oh my.. the suspense! second year uni!! this year!!..was soooo eventful!! My bro moved out:( and we all miss having him around alot!... and Wilson's here to study!..

Went to uni games for the 2nd year and this year was the funnest ever!!!!!! met more nigger buddies like Jamaica!! Praz!! Jason!! Kevin!! and heaps more! we bonded very quickly over some gin and tonic and tequila shots lol thnx to the bar tender Richard.. who as expected,, stripped again and played a game of jockies badminton!. we got owned by Monash but it was the best time i've had in the longest time i can remember!!!
We knighted Jamaica as our "social coordinator" which is a nice name for party organizer hahaha and lotsa crazy drunken party follows! mainly hosted at Jamaica's little unit!. ahhh good times....sadly Jamaica left to go back to the states:(.....

Team AucklandTeam Auckland

Human banner Human Banner: Jamaica, Sean, Rich (jock), Alex, Jason, Mark.

CIMG3705 One of those nights! Hij, Jamaica, Binz, Keuweeen, Praz

Went to the bersatu games mid year and man did i get in touch with the Malaysian side of me! one day i've got my normal speech and after spending just a few hours with the malaysians the malaysian accent comes out of no where!! thankfully i instantly switched back upon my arrival to Auckland lollll....also had a lota fun!! met alota other malaysians from other uni, hung out with cool people like rach mak, ben, etc etc! and we won!! For badminton and overall! go UMSA!

Oh and i started teaching in the children ministry at church which is a great great opportunity for me to learn more and just to serve God. Hopefully will help me grow as a christian and im loving it so far! just had the children sports day not long ago which was a great success!

Lots and lotsa 21sts to go to this year! Lisa's Richards's, KIM'S!, etc etc etccccc..


Yay so thats about it!! I'm sure i've missed out so much but please comment if u can remember something that i cant! hehe

Turning 20 in a few hours timeee.... no more being stupid!! more responsibilities!! I've had so mnany good times and everyone in my life are answers to my prayers and i love u all! I know God has planned for me a great journey ahead and i shall look forward to more and more exciting events! meeting more and more people!! and more importantly more and more great times with my friends and family:))))

Yayyyy the end! Hi Future me!!!

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 family The family!

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Happy 20th Birthday to old me!=D

 


Sunday, December 10, 2006

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh havent blogged for ThAT long!

anyways the only big thing that's happened lately was the awesomest greatest bstets one n only piha trip!!!

yup it was THAT good!

first thing in the morning on the 4th dec..we all met up at the gravel pit so we can all go together..so the piha crew---me, rach, eddy, shen, henry, leo, geordie, damjan, seung wook, david, bernard, ivan, jeremy, rudi,wankit, justin, jun pei and bill..all met up..and spent a good half an hour trying to sort out who sits in whose car n where to put the luggages lol..then off we go..

so me jermz leo n geordie ended up in rach's car n we sure had an interesting drive loll..very amusing..

then we got there and the house was awesommee...sooo big and pretty..big thnx to eddy n jermz!then we all grabbed a room bla bla except we doesnt include me n rach-_-"..the only two girls!! not getting a room..cool..so we ended up sleeping on the couch with sum other guys...then in the afternoon when it was raining..we went to the beach!!-_-"..coz the weather man david said tmr its guna be rainy too ( he was wrong) so we need to go now..but we ended up having shit loadsa fun lol...then me n rach got back too late to use to shower..so we showered last n with cold water-_-"..thx guys..such gentlemen..

then we wacthed bambi!!! coz tats the only good show we could find in the bucket..apart from hi 5..-_-/...damjan chose bambi lol..then rach went..aww i cried when bambi's mum died..then david ko the clown went..i cried when terminator went *thumbs up*...lollllll random comment~such a cracker...

then we cooked burger for dinner it was a mess but it was fun!! KHOO'S kitchen loll.aka khoo kang ko haha..then at night we played hide n seek in the house with the lights turned on..then the last round henry n damjan hid under the stairs n bill couldnt find them..so we left them there n started playing sumthing else n they came out after like an hour hahaha...soo funni...then we told ghost stories!! we get so scared but we like it so much loll..

next day we went to the beach it was soooo nice n sunny..abit chilly..but nice!..then the guys started sum mussel picking and me n rach was smart enuf to go home early to take a shower lol but noooo the other guys henry leo geord n jerm got back first lol..so smart..then we started cooking our spaghetti n henry was complaining alot haha..very funny tho..then the guys came back wif the bucket full of mussels and they told us a random funny story abt david's encounter wif the ranger person lol..

then at night during dinner..we realised tat damjan looked sooo much like snoop dog..lolll funni..throughtout the trip whenever something goes wrong its always damjan's fault coz he's the only black guy around haha..then daid cracked us up more wif more of his randomness haha..

then after dinner we played spin the bottle truth or dare n started drinking...rach had to do 3 shots poor her n she got wasted..i had one shot n 3 beer b4 i got wasted..i suck-_-"...but hey..i wasnt THAT drunk i just couldnt really stand n walk straight...n geordie got really amused n started cracking up at me lol i betcha he's drunk too..but no one can beat rudi n wankit..rudi got sooo wasted tat he puked everywhere n everyone hadta clean up afta him..n wankit died on ONE KGB!!..until the next day!! still dead!!..

then we slept on the couch again n i was henry's pillow..so hard to sleep-_-"..n wankit n henry was snoring..greaattt...

clean up day next day..took us soooo long...rach n eddy did the msot work ba lol poor them..

then off we go to send jacob off at the airport...leo was talking like ivan lollll sooo funni..

miss the piha crew sooo much i havent been sooo happy in such a long long time especially throughtout this crap year..a least i got sumthing to be real happy about this year lol...

went out dinner n clubbing wif them on friday nite i think n dvds at my place last night lol sooo awesome~...n we realied tat geordie looked like michael from roswell hahahaa...soo funni.

anyays tats about it lol so long..

update again after our next piha day trip on thurs!!..

Piha Crew 06         04 december    love you guys heaps!!!

Tzen

 


Friday, November 10, 2006

Mannnn end of an era..end of high school...no more high school for me ever and ever again..so sad..=(

wow it didnt hit me until just 3 days ago ay..b4 tat i was just like..yay..cant wait till this crap year is over..well i still cant but i really miss everything...tuck shop...lunch time hang outs..all my classes...all the people..mehhhh

the whole leaving school thing wasnt that bad but the fact that eddy n shen are leaving makes it sooo freakin sad..so this morning our calc class met up in mac d for breakie together..last meal? lol..along with mrs gouws..it was so much fun..some good class bonding time loll..very very cool..but knowing tat it might be the last time we'll see each other makes it kinda sad-ish..

then me justin and seran went back up to school for special assembly..it was awesome ass all the bands and shit...highlight of the day was neil and james being mr lamb and mr heard loll identical man!...then we had a little awards time which was fricken hillarious ay lolll...poor joseph got the gayest boyfriend haha yang yang with the most convenient name ahaha..then we got to watch the 7th form video and then conz n rach started crying-_-"..lol me n mandy so strong wahaha!..but the movie was awesome as..

then we had food time and photo n hang out time..saddest time of the day..sibyl suggested tat we pray for eddy n shen for their journey so we went on stage and formed a group hug-like circle lol..then sibyl started first and everyne just started bawling sooo hard...then shen prayed and everyone cried harder..man...emotional day for sure..then everyone hugegd everyone which made more cries..gahh..i hate bye byes...most emotional time of the whole thing was when me rach n mandy hugged mehhhhhhh so sad..will miss schooling with them sooo much..and will definitetly miss free-ing and gossiping with connie=(...y u go massey~!?!!!

bumped into Kayla my pe camp group buddy on the way out lol wat a surprize..caught up abit ahd took some photos lol pretty funny..i didnt recognize her before she called me ay...

then after that we had photo time outside..very very cool we had this photo when we all chuck our hoodies up in the air loll vry very awesome...

after that we went to bbay for some 'fush n chups' (according to shen) with mandy rach shen eddy jeremy justin seran karen geordie and leo..and we realise how much leo n jeremy looked alike haha same teeth same glasses same face! talked about favourtie and suckiest teachers for a bit and caught up with some junior events haha..very cool..sad that we wont get to do that alot later on=(..

well i'll miss everyone sooo much esp eddy n shen=(..they're legends..and definitely connie who's goin to massey=(...u poo...remember to come visit us now n then k?...n absolutely everything in rangi..mainly the randomness haha..

RANGI LEAVERS '06 ROX!



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